Archive for October, 2010
October 29, 2010
“that sweet young boy Todd” (2001)
…that sweet young boy Todd who gave me his number on Halloween — turns out he's 23, which is fantastic, because I didn't know how I would let him down if he liked me, and now that's solved. Surf is nice but w/o pot it's not the same…w/out wanting to fuck someone there it's not [...]
October 27, 2010
“I am psychically weak” (2000)
I am psychically weak. I would not be able to lift the car off my own baby. I would be too conscious of my ability to fail. "Other women do it all the time," I'd be thinking. "Just lift." And all the while, my baby crushed under the chassis wheel, or wherever the baby lands [...]
October 25, 2010
“starts hugging and making out” (1996)
…starts hugging and making out w/me, then we go to bed, feeling and kissing and touching and then he says he's not sure what it is but something's changed, and he doesn't want to make love to me the way he did, and I try to be patient for about, oh, 5 full minutes, then [...]
October 22, 2010
“carpe diem: seize the dime” (1994)
came together liketwo people folding a blanket law of the streets, babycarpe diem: seize the dime you snooze you looze this and otherhard feelings I hold against you like the free square white sugar mintlike the second in your dream [...]
October 20, 2010
“Chicken Fight” (1993)
CHICKEN FIGHT we recognize each othertwo half people, trying tomold ourselves around wholeswhole people, whole smilingbeautiful people, incredibly luckywho let us ride on our backslike geckos from hell I never see you alone anymore, it's hard to remember,I think at Danny'sbirthday party I wassitting alone in thecoatbedroom on the coats.I hate parties, I hateparties where [...]
October 18, 2010
“Women gather their things” (1991)
Women gather their thingsto them when wounded you hurt them they make motions to leavebut slowly, lighting cigarettesand fussing with buttons giving you plenty of timeto ask them to staythey bring their things nearer,rifle through purses, run theirstockingscry and cruse softlyre arrange themselves, re armorre prepare, once devastated anddeterminednot to let it happen againtaking everythingtidy, spiteful, leaving [...]
October 16, 2010
Helping
That is what Minky is doing here. Not too long ago, I took out all my old notebooks and put them in chronological order. At first, I was like, whoa, that's a lot! Good job, me. Then I was like, actually, for twenty years, that's not that much. Cancel the kudos. There are some [...]
October 15, 2010
Sister from another mother
I heard from Jessie Sholl the other day. Her memoir, DIRTY SECRET: A Daughter Comes Clean About Her Mother's Compulsive Hoarding, is coming out in December, and I am hanging on this book. The title itself is revelatory, makes me think of my own mother — why is our mothers' problem our secret? Why does it hang [...]
October 11, 2010
Likes
Subway reader, 2010, by Amanda Stern. Also: Jersey Shore. I know, I know — it's a minstrel show, it's offensive, and it glorifies steroids and violence. But this was my young adulthood. These were my friends, this is what we did: we pre-gamed before going out to clubs to dance half naked on bars; we [...]
October 11, 2010
Other People’s Movies
You know what I sometimes like to do, is make movies with my friends. Friends like, for instance, my dearest Emilie McDonald, pictured here at the recent sold-out debut screening of the short film she authored, directed, starred in, and co-edited, Other People’s Houses. (Also pictured: Co-star Miranda Smollanoff.) Thanks to the Bowery Poetry Club for hosting us! Also, [...]
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